Undefined feelings

What are you to feel when :
- You know that the two people, nearest to you, are hiding things from you, when you yourself are much more aware of it & when it is regarding you?
- You try to disclose your newly acquired knowledge to them & stop short in the middle of it when you see fear in their eyes?
- You call up the nearest blood relation to unbosom yourself but keep shut when you think that you shouldn’t sound depressed because the other person is happy?
- A friend calls up & you can’t tell that person anything?
- You feel like crying & you land up stifling your cries just to hide your tears?
- You cry & feel the absence of a shoulder?
- You look around for someone & find none?
- You need somebody & you have no clue about who that ‘somebody’ is?
- You want to do a lot but you know that you’re running short of time?
- You look for some company & nobody has time for you?
- You want something & you can’t have it?
- You dream of something & you know that it will never come true?